figments of manly imagination

I was thinking about what to give Meygan when I suddenly thought of sex. And sexual desires. But please don't relate this to Meygan, as this will not be about her. It will be about Apollonians.

I have never, of course, seen a girl, a lady woman, in Apollo. Usually, females are only allowed in the spaceports. It's simply blasphemous for females to walk around in Apollo. There is an exemption, and the exemptions are the Nymphs. Why? I don't know. But I have a vague idea as to why. 

Maybe, just maybe, the Nymphs do not exist at all and it is only a product of the very strong and unconscious sexual desire of a man for a woman. The Nymphs are typically sexually attractive young women who entice men. ENTICE. Why would women do that for no apparent reason? I've seen Nymphs come toward hideous men, and yet they don't seem to come to me as often. Maybe it's because I have no idea about sex and I have no idea how to kiss or hold hands and court women. And I never did have such a strong desire for women back in Apollo....my focus tend to shift to a lot of things there, though.
But that ugly guy attracted these Nymphs, because of what? Sexual desires. This is a great reason because they come to Hugo, Luca and Jan Jan a lot.

This is a bit faulty, though.

(Example A) They came toward Cain. He is a robot and I doubt he has sexual desires. But perhaps the Nymphs were curious because it looked like a MAN and they felt completely no vibes.

(Sub A) Zonvelf. He may be a different case to Cain but it is related. The Nymphs were quite suspicious of Zonvelf, but they didn't surround him like Cain. Maybe because Zonvelf is set on Paris?

(Example B) I am creepy and etcetera. This could be the reason why they are intimidated by me.

(Example C) They come to Alfie. But I have no idea how much he knows about sexual desires, and Nymphs are known to like music, which he is particularly excellent at.

Now, I feel a certain amount of sexual desire...( does it really closely cling on love like that?) so maybe I can test it out when we come back for Winter break. Are Nymphs real or just a figment of manly imagination?

So I took Errol's advice

So, now I need to look for a gift. What kind of gift....?

Spitting it out

Reading a certain manga, I seriously started thinking about just spitting it out like that. You know, just saying "I love you" and shit like that just to get it over with. I seriously considered it, and I will probably end up in the same boat as Saki...............................so that really made me stand back.

Also, I think I'm really putting a strong front here. I've always always ignored the thought of "falling in love" or "love" in general, so I gave it a long long long long thought as to why. And the most probable reason it that.........the idea embarrasses me. Simple, isn't it? I mean, love will have to eventually lead to all those mushy stuff, otherwise it will not amount to anything. And I guess it gives me an uneasy feeling, and it humiliates me..........for no conceivable reason.

But it really is such a bother. I don't see why I need to pursue and become a "boyfriend"... shouldn't just merely loving be enough? Or is there actually a rule book about these stuff? Cause I'm contented with just the loving part, even if I won't necessarily be her boyfriend. And it's not because I'm a martyr or masochistic.....I'm just not that greedy about it.

Focusing

I have a hard time focusing when I don't have a certain goal to put my energy to. I can't seem to get my head out of the clouds and I think and fantasize and think.... somehow tiring.

Re: Erika

Okay, but you're allergic to rum and the reaction is deathly.

I wish I had a pony. Preferably Pinky Pie.

scream-o guy

I have a deep voice, and yet I can reach really high notes when I'm singing. That's another mystery to add in my existence. :\ makes you think, though.

Body rock (kudos to Jin)

I don't normally look at people's body, I focus more on the face or their atmosphere. Or any remarkable feature that's just simply too eye-catching to ignore. Sooo I don't really give a doting dollar about things like this.

My body. Hm. I...Hm. I'm usually really concerned about myself...but mostly about my personality. I was once concerned about how my hair looked, but that was a first. Probably a last. I don't know, I guess I'm pretty satisfied?

becoming king

I've always liked the idea of ruling a planet, and I'm sure everyone's aware by now that I want to become king someday. I might be a little naive, but I don't give a damn if my methods aren't clean. If it takes a bloody-filled conquest, then so be it. But after that, I'm going to be the perfect king. I'm not even joking. And it's a good place to start if I do decide on a bloody conquest. The people don't trust me, the place is a mess, there would be riots and economical problems and traitors and rebels and issues and finance and structures to be built. It won't be a pretty sight, but it will be very fun and challenging to straighten up that squiggle of a planet. Ahh~ thinking about it is making me high.

September Experience? Jan Jan comes up with the weirdest titles. Actually I've been spending time with two Martians during my spare times. I'm in Lotus because I want some peace and quiet, and I'm in Gaming because I want some action and adventure. It's a really great balance, and I get along generally with my club mates. All's well for me.

the twins

Gaming club's been fun. The Hawk and I make a good team. Of course, everyone else are great, too... But us especially. :D

So I was reading one of Tama's blog and I suddenly remember that Tama is the older twin. It's...kind of weird. But thinking about it seriously, I guess it makes sense. They're both really childish, but Tomo especially. I mean, he did run away from his title and responsibility. And he's causing more trouble in the mafia. And he's just being a real bitch.

...This is what you call backstabbing, isn't it? Hahaha, kidding Tomo! But seriously.

Back when he was gender confused, Tama was a real big brother. Or he was just an incestuous bastard toward his supposedly twin sister. Or, I don't know....maybe he just wanted to be cool to benefit himself. But maybe deep deep deep deep deep inside, he actually cares a bit.

Room 015

Argh!

I was on my way to House D, to visit Zonvelf when it suddenly started pouring heavily. What luck. And to top it all off, Zonvelf was not in House D. Where'd he go?

I didn't want to disturb Tama, Henri and Remy with whatever weirdness they wrapped themselves into, so I headed towards Meygan's room, disgusting as it may sound. I won't do anything, though!!

She and Ari gained quite the fright when I entered, because (a) they were watching a horror movie, because, apparently, that's what she's into right now; and (b) ....well, I guess I'm just scary?
I was welcomed kind of awkwardly but warmly. Of course, I have an ulterior motive for coming to her room, but it's not anything filthy. I wanted to break the awkward tension between from last time.

It kind of worked, and we are kind of back to how we were. And it was a horror movie, too! A scary one. So, typically, in the scary parts, she would cling to me a little and it very much built "the mood". Haaaaa.... This is kind of nice. Maybe I should be more assertive about her, after all?

That aside, Ari was glaring at me the whole time. She makes me feel uneasy.

hesitant

I'm thinking a lot about love, lately.

Alvin, Reid, Kai and Zonvelf. They're all "lovers", and they're also all "go-getters". They just go for it, win or lose.

But I'm so hesitant? I wonder about that.

September '11

It's already September, huh? Time is flying by real fast.

Anyway, I joined the Gaming and Lotus club.

The Gaming Club: Errol, Remy and I felt down about the "assassination" thing being a class event. It was our thing, after all. So that depression sort of gave us the idea to create a gaming club, which isn't only limited to one game. I hope to have lots of fun in this club.

The Lotus Club: Honestly, I joined this club because I have an ulterior motive. I joined the club so I could hang out with Henri, since we haven't really been talking much. But then, the ulterior motive expanded to the whole club itself. It's composed of mostly quiet people...so I hope to get to know them more this month.

But why do I feel empty?
Actually, I know the answer.

I feel like helping people out with whatever. Now, you might say that I should've just joined the "goodness" club, but I didn't want to do it collectively as a group....and just because it's my club. I want to do it on my own, you know what I'm saying?

Well, hope that I can help a lot of people this month.

Shakespeare plays :)

Wow! We actually won! Our most outstanding character is Kai. Why am I not shocked? hmmm...Well, I've always thought he was a funny guy. There's not much to say but...wow. All House A did was laugh and laugh...for the most part, we didn't take it seriously. It was just all fun. I guess that kind of attitude really pays in competitions....especially when you're doing comedy.

I feel bad for the other houses, because some of them really put a lot of effort in it...while all we did was laugh. Guess it comes naturally?

Well, I didn't mess up anything. I think I pretty much executed my role well. So as everyone. It was fun. Remy acted very heavily dramatically...but it suited her character. And I like my costume! I really got into the role when I put the costume on... someday... I hope it will all be real.

The party was really fun! House A was especially ecstatic, of course. I saw my mum (yikes) and she was happy and congratulated me... she said that she was confident that I was fit for theater, that it all came out effortlessly. But I don't agree. Anything I do comes with hard work.
That aside, my friends from Apollo came, too! Aw, it was great fun. Dancing and eating and socializing. Felt like an authentic party, you know?
Hugo and Alfie were conversing with Alvin while I kept Luca distracted (Jan Jan was down and, knowing Luca, he could say something wrong), but then Alvin disappeared. I was constantly looking around for him, but I couldn't find him again. He seems really out of it.... I should really do something.

Here's some pictures I caught with my phone, before and after the play. My phone is that of a peasant's, so forgive the low quality. We also have a picture of us lunch buddies. Enjoy!

 

Just before we dispersed, to put our costumes on.

 

I was walking around, taking pictures of whomever I bumped into....Also took a picture of myself, after changing into my costume. It's a head shot, though.

Caught Nigel doing rounds, checking on everyone. He didn't give me a smile, though. Probably couldn't recognize my phone. And I also took a picture of Tomo, just before he set his hair loose.

During the party. This was taken really quickly by Zonvelf, because he wanted to go to Paris already. Too bad he didn't join the photo. And Jan Jan is looking rather down.

play and finals

I've been spending more time with House A, as expected. But more with Remy, than anyone. She was casted as Lady Macbeth so we're practicing a lot together. I have pretty much memorized my lines, but I'm nervous about making it come out funny. Since it's a comedy, I'm going to have to act and say things in a funny way. I'm a bold guy so everyone is confident about me, but I'm actually quite frightened at the thought.... I haven't been really energetic, like I used to. I just feel mellow, or fine... but not my normal "overly energetic" mood. I hope it comes back for the play....

Well, it doesn't matter if we lose in the play. Doing the play "Macbeth" was really fun. I'll look back at August and remember only laughing. Really. Honestly. That's all House A has been doing all month long.

Ah, and finals is nearing. I'm not too worried about it since I could find time for study. I would study with Errol at night before sleeping, or with the other Ayers in the lounge. And sometimes with Remy, since she's my buddy... but lately she's been with Tama a lot, so we haven't studied together a lot.

I feel rather balanced about everything. I feel pretty good about myself. I'm not so energetic, but I'm doing fine. (two thumbs up)

training

I was 12, middle school in Jupiter. Second and final year at school. The next time I got back to Jupiter was last year, during journey of self-awareness or something.

Well, living in a different plant and galaxy is a huge change alone, actually. But you can say I also changed. I wasn't my usual self. I was kind of quiet and out-of-it during middle school...probably because I was a little bit pissed off at Churika for suddenly dragging me to another place without explanation.... and also I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to my friends in Apollo. I was always home-sick.

I lived alone in Pomm city, so all I did was train to become stronger just because I read it in an old comics and got motivated. Yeah... I miss training for nothing. :)

Henri and past blogs

So, I was reading through my journey of self-discovery last year....

Wow, I miss a lot of people. And I really need to pay Errol back his money. And I was such a douche bag to Alvinny.

Also, Henri! I never saw Henri like this, but Henri! He actually doesn't like spending money...and also, I wrote something like Henri not being too fond of the Ruby sisters. Did...something happen? And one of the people I met from Uranus took a liking to Henri (since she was on a musical tour on Mars or something). And we actually accidentally fell asleep in one bed together. Weird.


Also, I've acquired a few things from that journey. Like, the "Calculator", the Eskimo suit, and the Lamp from Nether. I got some picture and traditional clothing from Artemis and a map of Pluto. I also received a shirt from Errol. I was given a Lyre by the Uranian operatic girl (who took a liking to Henri), and the herbs plus Rafe from Venus gave me a gun!

I had a dream :D (plus ttheme 4)

My dream: I think this was after the field trip, because we were all in PE uniform, and were all tired. I was with Zonvelf, Alvin, Jan Jan, Tomo and Cain, and we were all walking towards our houses. And then there was this huge crowd, clapping as we all passed and then Zonvelf and Tomo were telling me (in a playful teasing way) to get out of the middle because I was attracting attention. And then the five of them laughed. I didn't really get it.

So we arrived in House A, all five of us (I guess we're hanging out?) and then I sneaked a peek at the crowd again, and saw some government figure. "So that's why there was a crowd", I said. And I began getting excited about the government figure. And then I grab a yellow hood and "Angel" my supposed adopted daughter--who is a tall dolly (I think I named the doll "Angel" to mock Alvin because he threw me a look). Then all five of them told me to let it go and just ignore the government official. But no. My mind was already set. So Jan Jan told me "Okay, then, Lei. The best thing to do is eavesdrop behind the door of the SC lounge." (Because that's where he'll be). So we went to the SC lounge, and Jan Jan went in cause he's an SC. And I began eavesdropping for a while, but then someone came out and I flew to the nearest hiding place (under the stairs). But who was the person who came out? I don't remember. But it was a girl. And She was pissed and disappointed.

That's it.

NOW for the person I got. He/she is playful. Does these playful things. Kind of protective over someone. Pretty funny and chatty. I don't think I'd ever conversed with this person, though...But how I feel about him/her? He/she's pretty alright. I kind of think he/she's a little twisted, and uncooperative. He makes the most "shock-a-la-gasp" around here.

hypnotizing

AAAAAAAAH i'm blushing.
I mean, I'm not even sure if! And, and! And I can't even admit it to myself that I am... with her... and all. ):-| don't push it! And no one say anything!!


):-|
Well, how did I come to like her? It was during High School when I started noticing her more. I was encouraging her about something but she was being a stubborn mule about, so I gave up. But then later she showed up and did something quite amazing and... I guess I admired that part of her. She was brave to do something like that. It's something she loves and enjoys and is willing to do. I was really proud that time.

And then after that, it was everything. I started noticing different things and they're only about her. And I wanted to be closer and things, and I started talking to her more...I couldn't really understand it myself, but there was something in me that was pushing to be around her. Or maybe it's her pull?

And I just like how she's tough and demure all at the same time. And her movements are soft and graceful (because of certain activities in her childhood that I don't dare mention because it will make things obvious and I don't even know why now but I don't want her to know just yet). And most of all, probably, her transformation. Before, she used to only focus on popular stuff and herself and winning and she was bloody aggressive and rude and dumb. But now, well, she's still kind of daft, but she's working hard on improving her brain and I can see that! And she's also become nicer ever since she became bent on improving her manners or something.

Not many people can do something like that... like, from being mean to good. That's not something just anybody can do. She's also friendly and her pony tail bounces when she walks. Has anybody else noticed that? her ponytail? Bouncing? It's so...hypnotizing.

children's children's children

actually, i think a lot about this nationality stuff. i mean, after all, i want to be king. and, yeah, i like being Apollonian, but i can't rule Apollo since I'm not a royal-blooded Apollonian. even if I marry our representative, it's impossible to make babies with him. he would never accept me (yes, i think to this extent). i'll have to change my nationality, one day, to the planet i will someday rule. i just...have to find my kingdom.

moving to the actual blog theme, my answer will be heavily based on Paris' blog post about it, since i only finished reading hers. seeing as i have to choose an existing registered independent planet, i will have to go with Venus.

just because i want to experience being a tree.

a tree, and the kind with long life! maybe a 1000? 2000? i'd like to observe and be wise from age and i'd like to see the baby turn into a teen turn into a prince representative turn into a king have kids turn into the next heir and the next heir after their next heir. and i would have plenty to talk about and i would have plenty of time to explore.
and wouldn't it be interesting to be a king that is a tree? it's like, i've lived through my people's children and their children's children. and when they ask about their grandparents, i'd be all like, "Ahh, i remember your parent, child. He was particularly skilled in the arts of the cello. of course, such skills did not come overnight. i still hear the awful scritch-scratch sound he used to make. I always had Herbi the herbalist's great grandfather to cure my headache." And we'd both chuckle and have transparent "good time" bubbles floating around us.

nice thought. :)

Liquor

I drank only twice in my life, and that was during my service in some ship. the doctor told me never to drink again. Affects my health, he said. I don't think drinking that much could get you drunk, so I've never really been drunk. I imagine I can hold my liquor, though. But I will never be able to prove that.

GIRL

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

So lately, I've been thinking about a girl. I'm thinking about the wrong girl. It started out with that stupid picture. Ugh. I'm sure, by now, you all know who she is... since I blab to my heart's content whenever I have problems.

On a brighter note, we're finally in Parthenos. Jan Jan stayed two days and then left for the SC thing in WC academy. Which means, yes, we have a picture of him and Luca together. I'll post the Aristaios pictures next time...

At Linos with Hugo

So we're on our way to Aristaios, where Jan Jan should be right about now.

Linos was real fun. :) We sung a lot. My voice is a bit hoarse from all the singing. We also spent a lot of time with poetry, around the camp fire. I love that most of all about Apollo. :) poetry. Hugo is especially good at that. Oh yeah, the three of us stayed with Hugo this time. He stays with his dad and older brother (since he's half-Artemisian).

The three of us also helped out with cleaning Linos. It's a community thing, spring cleaning. Great fun (but real tiring). bluueeee sky, huh? (a look a wee bit too happy here?)

 

We also went to Philonis, the lake. It's actually in the border of Philammon and Linos, but it's more on Philammon. It was a bit far from where Hugo's house was, so we did a lot of walking. And we met a nymph (since Alvin and Cain wanted to see one). Hugo says that the nymph he introduced to as was his "girlfriend"... but I bet they haven't even conversed. Nymphs are flirtatious, but strangely shy... specially to foreigners.

 

This one took a liking to Cain, though. Nymphs sure are picky... and they pick the most curious ones too. I guess there's not much to see in their lakes? But it was cute to see her attached to Cain. Haha, so obviously flirting with him. But I don't think she liked my camera too much. Still, cute expression. :-)

And before we left for Aristaios.... I took a picture of the four of us! As promised! Weee~ I kept a promise. (I looks very at peace here, though... And Alvin seems... weird. Haha!)

Northeast Philammon

Hey. Before I begin, let me show all of you what I have been doing in my free time. :-D

 

With love from Erily and I. ;-) <3333

Post script: Taking the photo was totally my idea, but the words? Erily's.

Moving along, we've been spending the last few nights at Philammon with Alfie's family. We've also been attending their musical activities and been going to the temple. I've had a few snaps here and there... I don't know about Cain and what he's got so far, though. Here are some pictures. :-)

I took this one upon arriving. I'm finally home! Home sweeeet home! :-)
I really like it. It's very refreshing. (My hair is growing long...)

This is a picture of Alfie with a Lute. I wanted to take a picture of the four of us together, but we ran out of...films. :? This is a good photo of him, though. I mean, that's a nice shirt, over there. :-)
I'll take a picture of Cain, Alvin, Hugo and I altogether in one photo in our next stop.

We're going around, counter clock wise, so our next stop is Linos where Hugo will be. We'll also get to see a few nymphs there. :-D I think Alvin and Cain wants to see them? I'm pretty excited myself since it's been a while since I last saw a nymph.

Apollo with ole' Vinny

I'm in Apollo with Ole Vinny. He just tagged along for the sake of tagging along. Honestly though, I don't know why he did.

So we've arrived at the capital country, Philammon. It's a long ride home (to Parthenos), so I called up Alfie for shelter and he's a nice chap so I figured he'd say yes. And that he did. Of course, he's somewhere in the northeast of where we were, so it took quite the while to fetch us... And quite the while to get to his place.

(and i had this nagging feeling i was getting father and farther away from Parthenos).
And he said ^ was right.

I introduced Alfie to Alvin and all that, and he has a big family who are all kind of musically-inclined, so we had a nice welcoming committee. They were excited to see a Milky Wayer (?!). And they pretty much drowned Vin with questions. I ate while all this was happening.

It's my birthday today :>

It's also Kai's birthday. Happy birthday! Remember when you used to say "amateur"? :D ...
ಠ_ಠ... we were actually close?! (hard to imagine)

Mostly spent the day with Zonvelf, Jan Jan, Eji, Alvin, Tomo, Tama (he actually wanted to celebrate with me, how nice), Henri, oh Connor came too. Happy dude. I did steal Saki from Errol just in spite, but she punched me and walked away muttering something evil.

What? No girls? Well, they didn't want to come. I invited Meygan, but she said she'll give me a gift instead... probably because of the large number of boys.
...Maybe I should take her out tomorrow? Alone? ....wait, I think Kai spent his birthday with Vanilla. Like, in a date.... Not that I'm saying I'm taking Meygan out on a date tomorrow or anything! Not that I'm being bashful or in denial!

...maybe i shouldn't take her out, then.

five hours

I woke up early today, so, having nothing else to do, I just went through the photos I took during high school, when we were in Earth. I took some really odd pictures, so it was pretty amusing to look through them. I made a lot of mess in the room with the pictures, and I couldn't be bothered to clean it up just yet so I went out for a stroll... or something.

The morning breeze was...very nice. So cool. I took the chance to write about stuff since I could think coherently, and I was just in a happy mood.

And then I ran into Meygan. She said hi. I said hi. At first, we talked about the rumoured new students (a massive increase in females?!) and other silly stuff. And then we started drifting off to high school, since I was telling her about the photos I took. Somehow, from there, we talked about many other things that I can't quite remember anymore. We talked for about five hours straight. It was a very good conversation. I enjoyed it a lot.  It's, like, the fastest five hours of my life, but also the slowest. How can that be possible?

I went back to house D, eventually, and back to my room. The pictures were still scattered about and I noticed a picture of Meygan. In the picture, she's wearing her high school uniform, and the lighting is bright. But she's not smiling. I can't tell if it was a stolen shot or not. I can't remember taking it. But it's a nice picture of her.

Ha! Friendship.

Look at this! :D It's a picture I got from the school festival! :-) Zonvelf was feeling really down about Paris, so I took him to the photo booth so that we could have wacky pictures. I don't know where Alvin and Erily were, but too bad we don't have pictures together. And so as Jan Jan, too. Actually, I think I'd like pictures with everyone. I like taking pictures, anyway. One of the things I like best...

Right. The next time I go on a journey, I'll bring a camera. I'll take pictures everywhere! :D

So the House A event. I was with Jan Jan and Zonvelf all week long. Sometimes Tomo would pop, but then he'd just as quickly disappear. I spent little time with Alvin and Erily... They're busy, I guess?

I went on the rides with Zonvelf... we talked about his love troubles. I mean, he would sometimes complain, but he never really described it in full...

So... that's how it would be like when I have someone I love? What if she doesn't love me back...? Hm. I'll just come crying at Zonvelf the way he came crying at me.

my mood

Maybe it doesn't seem like it, but I'm usually on a good mood. Like, maybe an abnormally good moodmore than usual... but, you get it, right? And do you know why that is? DO YOU KNOW? Well, of course you don't.... :-)

The reason? Oranges. They boost your mood. They do. They really do, trust me! I mean, see me? I'm so vibrant! :D look at my shiny teeth when I smile.

But then again, I eat too much orange. So, this may be the cause of my confusion. But I don't think that oranges would betray me, right? Yeahhhh

What do you think?

HEY HEY CHECK IT OUT! :D

It's some horoscope thing I found and it somehow makes me feel...you know... me! Because I'm really in some sort of identity crises, aren't I? Check it out! Does it seem 'me'?

PISCES - The Partner for Life ------------------------------------ Well, I'll try to be.
Caring and kind --------------------------------------------------------- YEP. :)
Smart ------------------------------------------------------------ Next question, please.
Likes to be the centre of attention -------------------------------- hehe, GAC.
Very organized ---------------------------------------------------- Not at all.
High appeal to opposite sex. --------------------------------------- I don't know.
Likes to have the last word. ------------------------------------------ yeeeeaaaahhh...
Good to find, but hard to keep ------------------------------------ ...Am I hard to keep??
Passionate, wonderful lovers ---------------- well, I'm passionate but I'm not sure about the lover part.
Fun to be around -------------------------------------------- Well... Hm. I don't think so. :(
Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily ----------------------------- YES. JUST YES.
VERY caring ------------------------------------------------------- Well, I do care.
They always try to do the right thing and
sometimes get the short end of the stick ----------------------------- Mostly, yes.
They sometimes get used by
others and get hurt because of their trusting --------------------------- ... :( yes.
Extremely weird but
in a good way ---------------------------------- I've been told I was weird, but I'm not sure if it's good.
Good sense of humour!!! ------------------------------------------ Alvin said no. :(
Thoughtful ------------------------------------------------------ I think a lot, yeah.
Loves to joke ------------------------------------------------------ Haha! yeeeaaaahhh....
Very popular ----------------------------------------------------- Hmmm, don't know. Can't tell.
Silly, fun and sweet ---------------------------------------------------- Yes?
Good friend to others but needs to be
choosy on who they allow their friends to be ----------------------- Yeah kind of true.