Happy Birthday VINNY!

Baked by me and Tama (closet-nice). But mostly ME! :D

I drew London

I drew London.

Uhhh she doesn't seem like she's in love, does she? But then again, what do I know? hahahaha. hmmmmmm I do know that she and Chrysander will marry, but I don't know when they met. Oh! She was already mentioniing Merrily back in WC high, so I guess her first love must be Merrily. I don't know, maybe she was 13 when she fell in love. That feels like a good time for a girl to normally fall for someone. Yep, she must be healthy. And her favorite food is definitely fruit salad. Cause she's a healthy lass.

MS picture

Since I've already posted my middle school blog, here's a picture instead! It was taken in Jupiter in one of those DIY photo boothe shit. As you can see, I ain't smiling. Smiling wasn't cool back then, okay?! Okay....

Quiet Middle School Days

I remembered a terrible thing from the past!! :(

When I was in Middle School, for some reason or another, Churika brought me to Jupiter. I was new and in Earth class, and I was really shocked with how popular I became! It was my first time dealing with that huge number of girls and at close range, too. We played a lot together, chasing each other around the school. And the guys, too, they were very interested in me and always played ball games with me.

But after like a week, they stopped and most of them ignored me! >:( (come to think of it, why did they hang out with me in the first place?!) In the end only three people acquainted themselves with me, and two of them didn't even have pure intentions. >:( >:(

Ahhh, I feel like crying! TT^TT That kind of thing really made me question my personality and put me really down. So that's why I became a recluse in Jupiter. :D

The Nothing Song

I can't sleep again.

I always feel that there will come a time that I'll be happy, and everything will go uphill from there... but I never seem to arrive to that point. I can't seem to escape this misery, it's frustrating.

It's so confusing... I can be so completely happy for the day, and then I'll wake up in the middle of the night or something, and there's just this horrible feeling of emptiness. Or worse, waking up from a nightmare of a terrible memory.

Or some stupid shit like that.

And yet I can't get enough of the senseless reality and the fear of a dim future. The ridiculous, impulsive, demented, incomprehensible flavour to my tongue.

...i think maybe i like it.

Lunchies with Tomo

Hey all~ currently eating some lunchies with Tomo dear. He will be helping me in the blogtheme. Anyway with the not so decisive power if Tomo, we came to the conclusion that i am somewhat like quote and unquote Hamekins, who ever that may be. Why, you ask? Because she goes at her own pace and heed friends on what to do... But not necessarily doing everything they say, I WANT TO ADD. Because it's true!
Next one is Remy. Just cause of her sheer unpredictableness. Now she is a Haru.

Got to get going my tummy's making lots of noise and Tomo is helping himself with my food. But it's okay.... He's gotten real skinny! Btw, Vin is currently on the way to our table to serve the dessert. My orange almonds chocolate cake is looking delish! There goes my tummy again.

7th anniversary first date

I asked a lot of you for advice on how to go about on a first date, and it gave me lots of ideas. So I went with *drum rolls* Study date! Hahahaha, so I didn't listen to anyone in the end, right? :-D
But it wasn't exactly a study date, since we watched a bunch of movies first, and when we actually got to studying...

I kissed her! :-O OMG OMG!!! Kidding. I've kissed her before. In the cheeks or forehead, because kissing friends are normal! But this is the first on the lips, but does it matter where? Naaawww!!

Oh, and don't worry, nothing particularly weird happened. I just kissed her and pushed her on the bed a little. But then she stopped me because we have exams the next day so we went back to studying. What is her problem? It's just a bit of kissing.

And yes, that lady is Meygan. I reckon I should tell, since you can see her face here clearly as daylight. And who are we kidding, right? You all knnoooow!

hmmm, and you know what? Kissing lips are super nice. So unexplainable soft! Makes me feel squirmy inside! I should do it more often.  

Limerick: highlighting vanity for once

I love my orange, I love my bear,
I love my overly-curly hair.
But I love most your subtle sign;
let's paint you all in cyanine!
Day and night I'll stare and never share.

The pack of Artemisians

Alfie sent me a letter with this picture.

Alfie said that Hugo has been fussing about this pack of Artemisians. They usually are seen in huge groups that are exclusively only gurls. Hugo wants to flirt with them but they shut him off completely. He's been depressed about it, apparently. Guess he isn't used to being shut down by girls, since the Nymphs always accept him with open arms. strangely enough, the nymphs don't like me very much...?
Anyway, Hugo is pining for that girl in the far left, while Luca has expressed interest in the second girl from the right. "And so," Alfie said. "I need to protect either the girls from Hugo or Luca, or the two idiots from hurting themselves". Hm. Seems that Alfie's having it rough. He proceeds with the letter by telling me how relieved he is that he isn't all into girls, as well as me and Jan Jan.

Oh right. I have yet to tell him about my girlfriend. I only saw little of them from summer, after all. Alfie will also be saddened to know that Jan Jan actually has interest in girls, more so than me, if he only realises.
Alfie ended the letter by saying that Churika had stopped by SMU. Did she forget which school she enrolled me in??

althooouugghh

I don't really have any regrets... But I think it would've been better if I hadn't told Meygan my feelings at all and just made her aware of it herself.Now she's analyzing me. Creep.

Lei's mind

details. I have all these half-remembered little details. Like a curve in the very edge of a wooden yellow gold bed, and shapes in the curtains the lights make at night when you can't seem to fall asleep. I also remember unnerving silences, and, consequently, words or phrases that repeat and repeat in a loop in my head on fine mornings... also odd insignificant gestures....like when this guy in this planet was simultaneously idling about and dancing a bit. His feet were apart, bent, and he made this smooth movement of putting his arms over his head while swinging his waist.... he just wanted to stretch but he did it so unnecessarily gracefully and flamboyantly. I remember having the feelings of wanting to break his back that time. I think I still do, because he's cursed my mind to keep that memory of a stranger's movement. Over the course of time, it's grown lovelier as an idea, but I think my mind has subconsciously shaped it into a more favourable, acceptable memory. I also like taking pictures of people, but looking at them again, I can't decide whether these photos are dreams or real, because I can't recall taking certain pictures. I remember 2 years ago(?), I found a picture of Meygan in my collection (click!). It had just the right timing and expression, but I couldn't remember at all when and if I even took that photo. I also always think about people I've met (I never forget people I meet) and their little quirks and I come to realize and learn why they're like that... and then I compare them to me, who's disturbed over his identity.

My mind seems to be a little museum of photos with different little things, where all the people I know gather and talk to each other.

A strange Zonvelf

Hmmm. Zonvelf's been acting strange since a few days ago. He's been bumping into walls and posts and Jan says he's been going inside the wrong rooms in House C lately. He also said that he ends up spacing out when they're taking care of the props and discussing the crime story of House C. And while we were gossiping about Zonvelf during lunch, he didn't seem to notice. Hahahaha what's that idiot doing?

Churika

I've had numerous parents in my time. There was Master Draco, Uncle Jackfruit, Lady Helga, Mister Aesop, Great Pelagia, Scholar Agape... They were the ones who took care of me for more than 4 months. Ooh! There's also my Grandpa, quote and unquote Master Pantaleon. Wooot! That name. Anyway, of course, out of all of them my only parent is Churika. Because my father claims that he is dead, so I hear. Anyway, Churika and I are tight. She tells me things I ask...of course, I don't actually ask a lot. But then she blabs a lot, but I tend to zone out and miss most of what she says. I'm big in the whole easily distracted thing.  She doesn't seem to mind that, though. She likes to hear herself speak rather then being heard. It helps her keep up with herself. And there were many occasions when she cried, and I just comforted her (She's a crybaby if you know the right words to set them waterworks off).... I actually prefer those moments because it involved very little of speaking. I'd rather rely on the whole behaviour-reading and instinct acting thing. There's a planet like that in some galaxy and I really like that. Maybe I'll try to steal that planet someday. Anyway, yeah. We're good. Of course she does drop me off a lot, but at least she doesn't completely abandoned me. I'm not really clear on my bitterness toward that. I think I got over it two years ago... At least the weird journey of self-discovery did something good, right? Riiight. Last I saw her was.......... uhhh.... The play last year? Yeah, she was all "That's my boy, that's my boy" wiping my saliva off my mouth kind of thing and ruffling my hair. She's actually tall, like almost 5'9. Not that that's relevant...

oh right, I'm going to say the reason why I call her Churika instead of "mother dearest". It's because she's also my sister. Of course, that was a most appalling sentence that I shall reveal it's true nature to be that of a joke. She's my mother dearest. I actually call her mom, mommy, mother and such on rare occasions. Anyway, so we travel a lot and a lot of people know her. And when she suddenly disappears without warning (she always disappears with warning for me), I'd ask people around me where my mommy was. They'd ask me who my mommy was and when I answer Churika, they wouldn't believe me. (The only trait I got from is the curliness of her hair) So! I just went and called her Churika...I was younger back then so I got used to it.

blog theme 1

so, moneeeey!

I actually have a bank with lots of money there. Churika says it's inheritance from when my father died, but who knows, you know? Maybe she lied and she just actually stole those money and put it all in a bank. Or something. I mean, she's always telling me how my father was actually rich, but there's something off about that.............. so I refuse to believe. it's just a bank with lots of money for me, anyway. I can't access it all the time, so I work from time to time. And sometimes Churika sends money. I guess I'm generally secured when it comes to financial stuff.

Our Janny Boy

It's a picture of the circle of six, cut at 3.14 to the formation of what should seem like a fabulous LINE! :D

Other than that, I've been wanting to blog about our Janny boy.
He hasn't told anyone about this, and I haven't actually asked for his consent to tell this because bitch, I'm Lei, I don't need permission..... yeah, anyway, so he never told this to anyone but he actually hated his home so he ran away to the main lands in Apollo and became a Shepherd. He knows most lands in Apollo.... Heck, I don't even know my own home land, I was always away hahahaha. Yeah, he was probably our guide during the big field trip thingo.

Anyway, so when Jan Jan reached the proper age of entering high school, he applied for a scholarship in sports (Baseball) and was accepted (also because of another thing I unfortunately cannot tell you even though I'm Lei). He was too egotistical to ask his father to enter him in the capital's swell boarding school so he got himself in through his own means. it's a good thing, also, that he isn't very picky with things..... he doesn't really need a lot of things. just food and water or maybe wine, so he doesn't need to work for much money. what a....simple life.

What an independent boy! it makes me almost envious. I mean, I rely a lot on friends for decision........ and yeah, i can live on my own but....not in the level of Jan Jan who accepts shit that comes his way and just tolerate it. I like make things bend my way and shit, which is what makes me Churika's son I guess. Also, I can't stand simplicity for myself (although i have a strange affinity for simple people), I like things really grand.

anyway, I've written something typically chaotic again so I'll just stop now.

Sickk

So the great field trip is over. Safe to say, i didn't enjoy Juno much. Aside from the fact that i couldn't drink or fuck, my stomach started to ache in the casino so i did not get much chance to play cards either. And now i'm seriously sick. :| well i'll blog about the rest of the trip once i find time.K

Everything...

So, we're currently in the spaceport in Pluto, waiting for our flight. It's almost boarding time, but waiting has always sucked. This trip is giving me a lot of flashbacks from my journey more than two years ago. The most prominent thing I did back then was be in the spaceship or wait for the spaceship in the spaceports. Looking at my passport right now, I should think of getting a new one. It is almost nearly full of stamps. Looking at it is really giving me a strange nostalgic feeling.... or a feeling that...none of it really happened.

In Artemis, I experienced a fire in an inn. In Nether, I searched for a statue and failed. BIG time. In Pluto, I was thrown to jail and experienced the most painful avalanche in the history of painful avalanches. In Neptune, I was bullied, befriended, and I even travelled to the past through words. In Uranus, I sang and was thrown tomatoes at. In Saturn, I worked the Earth. In Jupiter, I experienced the second crash on my life. AND SURVIVED! In Mars, I was rude and clucked at this guy, but he was still kind to me anyway. In Earth, I saw myself. In Venus, I joined a gang and almost killed a plant. In Mercury, I joined the military and escaped not so gracefully. In The Sun, I lied to die and got back up again just in time.

And I met soo many people, too. That Artemisian girl from the inn who could cook really well, that Nether I danced with whose twin was in Milkyways, Harmonica Dude (the genius escapee) and Chubby Hairy Man who gave me a thick overcoat, The Neptunian Satyrs who watched a detective movie with me, The Uranian operatic girl (who had a crush on Henri, by the way), Damien and Stacey of Southern Saturn who were ungenerous but kind, Rich Jupiterian Isidor who offered to be my father since his boy died, Henri...although I've already met him a lifetime ago, Vanilla's immediate family who were staying in E.A.P during the time(because of Valentine's Day I think?), Bandanna and the rest of the Daffodils Gang, The Uno and The Dos and that boy named Yuta, those bastard Sunians who beat the crap out of me, and finally that ill-tempered Salacian boy who invited me to see him there one day.

Haaa.... what kind of life can I have to live it all again?

You know who's stupid?

Meygan is so stupid!!

So we were in Mars and she was showing us around the Spring District. I wasn't really interested because I've already been there two years ago with Henri. So she came up to me and told me she would like to show me something... of course, I wasn't interested at all, because I thought I already knew what it would be since I thought it was bound to be a tourist spot.

A tourist spot it was not. She showed me bunnies! Two bunnies! And I was all "awwww" and feeding them bananas and they were just so adorable. But that's not what irked me, of course.

IT WAS ALL A TRAP! Dun dun DUUUUUUN!! A trap to get me in her house so I could meet her uncle plus cousins. I told her before that I didn't want to, so "I did not want to" had to stick. I ninja-moded out of their tiny house and into the free world that is Spring District sky. Stupid girl, she thought she could get me. I'm so upset! I don't like meeting families, damn it. >:-(

And I even floated my way out, how rude.
So now I'm being mad at her and ignoring her.... but the fucker doesn't even realise it. >:( I mean I walked up to her and screamed "I'M IGNORING YOU!" and then "hmp"ed away from her, but she shushed me. SHE SHUSHED ME! She shushed me and said that she was in the middle of a brilliant idea. She even quote and unquote it.

Anyway, now that I'm in Jupiter I'll get away from this miserable group of goons and go meet some Jupiterean friends.

Worship

I can't feel my legs.... I slept on it, but also, I got into an accident with Hugo. Well, not really an accident so much as a fight. That slut is sort of difficult to beat.

In other news, I'd been talking to my girlfriend on the...phone. She insist that I call her every other day. A bit of a hassle, I must admit, but she says she's high-maintenance. She says it a lot, in fact. She says it so much that it's almost lost its meaning in my head....and I almost forgot to despise it. But I still do, of course. I like to hate almost as much as I like to love......
That made little sense.

Anyway, Jan Jan blogged recently about religion and that we worship mostly in private. There is something else, though. If you're lucky, (and you are most likely not) you could catch a glimpse of an Apollonian in worship. Andromedans, as you all know, are very religious and they don't like to stop when they're in the middle of worship. SO! You might catch an Apollonian in worship... usually, we walk with eyes wide open, in the dark, when the sun sleeps. The stars are our witnesses, but anyone is free to join...in secret, that is. Because we really hate when other people start meddling.

Anyway, so the typical Apollonian worships in the dark, where the stars stare. Our eyes never close, and we are at our most honest. We usually go all the way up a mountain, or cross a river...no swimming, just plain walking. It goes on till sunrise. We don't dance but we sure are creepy as hell. :]

In no rush

Hello! Jolly good wheather, eh?

Sooo as you all know, my birthday was on the 15th so let me just talk about that, hm? I celebrated it like last year....with everyone (INCLUDING JIN this time BECAUSE WE SHARED A KISS!)! T'was so much fun. Nothing eases my soul like the peal of laughter from my deer friends. Yes, you are all but deers. I quite like deers... but i like antelopes better. Something about their eyes...

Hm, I'm getting off-track.
Yes, right. So I celebrated it like every other year. But only this time, it was a bit different hooha! :D
Yes sirry, it was different. I was hiding around flirting with my girlfriend!

there you go. As you can see, her back is turned to the camera (by the way, who took this??)... that's because she's a "mysterious girlfriend x". She insists that our relationship be a secret, so all you'll get is a back view. It's a secret to everyone but Kai, I assume... because, well....he saw. By the way, happy birthday to that fella'.
But that's about all we did though. MGX and I ate in some cute cafe and then went and hid some more and generally talked all the while. It was pretty exciting, but I was hoping for a kiss. Not that I'm rushing.

(I had a picture of everyone celebrating, but I'm not sure if I'll get around to posting that.)

By the way.....

Meygan approached me on the leap day.... but it's supposed to be a secret so shush.

I can't sleep

I can't sleep.

So I went ahead and read past blogs.
Damn, we write the strangest little things...
Saki blogged about a curious little conversation with Tama about Ralph.
I feel like I want to know... the nosiness in me is pushing.

Also, I'm surprised I don't have any blog posts for February yet. You'd think I'd have tons by now.
Well, there's just 8 days to go and I don't feel like wasting that.

Right, I should talk about what happened with Meygan.
As you all probably know, I lost that silly bet I proposed myself. Since she fell off during the Wipeout event, obviously we won't be going out. And it was dreadfully awkward, and I felt stupid and depressed. But during the ball she said to let her think about it more.

But that made me think. What happens if she does become my "girlfriend"? It seems like it's just a silly label and that I don't really need it at all. I prefer just spending time with her like before... and that is probably where this will all lead to. I just want to naturally act around her, you know?
I feel so stupid doing all this cheap and ridiculous girly things. >:(

Girls and Boys

I was reading this shoujo manga with Remy(after school) ...because we like manga. It's called Men's Kou...and I can kind of relate since I come from an all-boys planet. But then this Tanaka girl begins reasoning out and shit, and I got lost. But Remy said "I can totally relate to her"....and I'm just "What!?"..... Who can relate to that? I can't even understand.

Is this how it is when you go out with someone? It's kind of frightening. :{

Oh, and Remy suddenly asked me if it seems like she likes Jan Jan. I'm kind of an oblivious fucktard, but I actually noticed that she clings to Jan Jan quite terrible. But I probably just noticed this because she's my buddy. So I told her "Yeah, you seem like you're interested in him, I guess."

And then she stepped on my foot, storming out. I guess it was the incorrect answer?

Speaking of Jan Jan, I was walking toward the Caf when I saw him carrying around this really huge rock. I waved cheerfully and asked him if he's hungry.

He replied with a punch. I guess that's a no..... (why am I being abused today?) But unlike Remy, Janny boy's a dude, so I kneed his stomach. He spat a bit of red blood at me (Too much haging out with Nigel, I think). Rude bastard.
I noticed he was kind of bruised, so I was easy on him. I punched him in the mouth, then gave him a band aid for that scratch in his left cheek. I'm so nice... :)

Winter Break Fun

So I tested the Nymph thingy I was rambling about before. Turns out that I'm wrong! What a shock! I was so confident about it, too. :\ Ah, well.

Anyway, for the winter break, I was in Apollo with Zonvelf, Jan Jan and the three idiots. Basically, we went around Philammon Christmas eve, because Hugo had to see Palfiena (this Nymph he feels obligated to). I heard from Alfie that the girl is kind of maybe addicted to Hugo, but she once hated him. From observation, I'd say both Luca and Jan Jan has a crush on her.... (well, she's really pretty but I don't understand the concept of attraction very much) Luca likes girls so I'm not surprised, but this is a bit of a first for me with Jan Jan. I've never seen him like girls/Nymphs. And how the hell did Hugo make this pretty girl fall for him? Hm... maybe I'm asking advice from the wrong people.

 This is Hugo and Palfiena :) I have to give credits to Palfiena. The lake is almost wholly ice, but she went up just  to see Hugo. I wonder why she's empowered to do that at all....

Alfie catching snow with his tongue, while Luca and Jan Jan walk in the background (Luca doesn't want to come near the lake because he didn't want to get wet ergo cold). Seeing them together like that made us all really nervous (except for oblivious Zonvelf).

Speaking of which, Zonvelf did nothing but sulk about how his girlfriend is in another galaxy and he can't be with her. Alfie is repulsed by this, while Hugo and Luca congratulate him about the relationship (but what is there to congratulate about?). Alfie is a strong believer of cooties, by the way. I used to, too... but then I fell in love with Meygan (i think...).

Here's Zonvelf and I playing in the snow. He's kind of pissed off at the moody snow storm weather.

For New Year's, we just bummed out at Hugo's place (his parents are really loose). They helped me decide what to do for Meygan's birthday and we basically argued the whole day which gift idea was better and we somehow ended up talking about the Fermi paradox. In the end, Luca got sick of people not following what he wants, so he grabbed my phone and wrote some stuff and sent it to Meygan. I'm too scared to look at what he might've written...