I can't sleep

I can't sleep.

So I went ahead and read past blogs.
Damn, we write the strangest little things...
Saki blogged about a curious little conversation with Tama about Ralph.
I feel like I want to know... the nosiness in me is pushing.

Also, I'm surprised I don't have any blog posts for February yet. You'd think I'd have tons by now.
Well, there's just 8 days to go and I don't feel like wasting that.

Right, I should talk about what happened with Meygan.
As you all probably know, I lost that silly bet I proposed myself. Since she fell off during the Wipeout event, obviously we won't be going out. And it was dreadfully awkward, and I felt stupid and depressed. But during the ball she said to let her think about it more.

But that made me think. What happens if she does become my "girlfriend"? It seems like it's just a silly label and that I don't really need it at all. I prefer just spending time with her like before... and that is probably where this will all lead to. I just want to naturally act around her, you know?
I feel so stupid doing all this cheap and ridiculous girly things. >:(