MS picture

Since I've already posted my middle school blog, here's a picture instead! It was taken in Jupiter in one of those DIY photo boothe shit. As you can see, I ain't smiling. Smiling wasn't cool back then, okay?! Okay....

Quiet Middle School Days

I remembered a terrible thing from the past!! :(

When I was in Middle School, for some reason or another, Churika brought me to Jupiter. I was new and in Earth class, and I was really shocked with how popular I became! It was my first time dealing with that huge number of girls and at close range, too. We played a lot together, chasing each other around the school. And the guys, too, they were very interested in me and always played ball games with me.

But after like a week, they stopped and most of them ignored me! >:( (come to think of it, why did they hang out with me in the first place?!) In the end only three people acquainted themselves with me, and two of them didn't even have pure intentions. >:( >:(

Ahhh, I feel like crying! TT^TT That kind of thing really made me question my personality and put me really down. So that's why I became a recluse in Jupiter. :D

The Nothing Song

I can't sleep again.

I always feel that there will come a time that I'll be happy, and everything will go uphill from there... but I never seem to arrive to that point. I can't seem to escape this misery, it's frustrating.

It's so confusing... I can be so completely happy for the day, and then I'll wake up in the middle of the night or something, and there's just this horrible feeling of emptiness. Or worse, waking up from a nightmare of a terrible memory.

Or some stupid shit like that.

And yet I can't get enough of the senseless reality and the fear of a dim future. The ridiculous, impulsive, demented, incomprehensible flavour to my tongue.

...i think maybe i like it.