The Nothing Song

I can't sleep again.

I always feel that there will come a time that I'll be happy, and everything will go uphill from there... but I never seem to arrive to that point. I can't seem to escape this misery, it's frustrating.

It's so confusing... I can be so completely happy for the day, and then I'll wake up in the middle of the night or something, and there's just this horrible feeling of emptiness. Or worse, waking up from a nightmare of a terrible memory.

Or some stupid shit like that.

And yet I can't get enough of the senseless reality and the fear of a dim future. The ridiculous, impulsive, demented, incomprehensible flavour to my tongue.

...i think maybe i like it.